I was thinking weird stuff today. I try not to do it, but sometimes it just happens.
So I was wondering...what do you think the doctors thought when Kevin was first brought in from the field? I have occasionally wondered if they thought there really was no hope for him. If they thought "Why bother? He's never gonna make it anyway."
I can say that the neurosurgeons here didn't believe he would ever wake up and that he would definitely never amount to anything, but it just makes you wonder - do surgeons HAVE to operate? Even if they don't feel it will help? Or do they get to make the choice?
I would say that it's people like Kevin that have to make these doctors feel good about their jobs. I know (especially in a war situation) that a lot of the outcomes aren't as good and I am just so thankful that they did the job - that they opened him up, dealt with all the broken bones, the internal bleeding, all of the burns and the fact that they had to cut out part of his brain.
But do you think they stood over the operating table though and said 'Well, we did the best we could so let's close him up and send him home to his family. I doubt he'll make it through the trip though".
Honestly, all of this is kinda morbid, I know...but sometimes I just can't help it. Sometimes I have to wonder what they thought. I know that I, myself, was ignorant to the realities. Truthfully, we weren't prepared for what had really happened - telling someone that their son has an open head wound can in no way prepare you for being told he had part of his brain cut out. But really - how could anyone say those words over the phone, right?
Ah well...just ignore me tonight. I honestly don't know why I think some of this stuff. I guess it's just because I do know what a miracle Kevin is and I am just so utterly thankful that the surgeons in both Afghanistan and at Ladstuhl (sp) really stepped up to the plate and did something that they probably thought wasn't going to make a darn bit of difference.
And I think tonight I just need to make a collective "Thank You" to all of the folks that helped on this journey; the doctors and surgeons, the nurses, the flight crews, the case managers and everyone else that I am just not naming, but that had a hand in keeping Kevin alive during the past 2 years!
A HUGE THANK YOU GOES OUT ACROSS THE LAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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