Kevin ran away today. He was mad at me because he has to take a new pill and he didn't want to do it. We argued about it and then he decided he was going to leave and he grabbed the car keys. I had to hold him back and he was trying so hard to get past me to the garage and he was actually winning because he is so much bigger than I am when I just burst out crying. He got disgusted and threw the keys and went into his room. It was only a few minutes when I realized he would probably leave out his french doors and sure enough - that's exactly what he had done.
Thankfully he walks very slowly and I found him just past the front of the house walking down the sidewalk. I left him go and then my Mom went and walked with him when he got out of sight. That kid walked over a mile all the way to the front of our subdivision. By that point, I was already following him in the car because I would have never thought he could physically walk that far.
He did finally get in the car, but by that point he was already sunburned and he was exhausted. He had been walking about 1/2 hour to 45 minutes.
And I just sat in the car and cried while he walked and walked and walked. What really killed me is that I don't even think he remembered why he was walking. He was grinning and waving and smiling like it was just a game. I think he thought (by the end) that the end of the development was a goal and he was just proud that he did it.
I know when we got home and I tried to talk to him about it he was completely clueless. I told him if this kind of thing continued he would have to be put in a home, but he really didn't get it at all. He didn't understand any of the conversation.
I just gave up.
He came out of his room a little while later and acted like nothing happened. I guess in his mind nothing did, but it's not that easy for me to just forget. And it made me so sad that my son is sometimes so childlike that running away is what he thought to do. This whole thing is just so sad. I hate that my son is like this. I hate that I have to watch him and can't trust him for a second. It's just not fair.
But, it is what it is and I guess I have no choice but to accept it.
And other than that, the rest of the day was good. It was my Mom's birthday so we all got together and had a nice dinner and swam all day. I had intended to get the rest of the rocks put down, but Kevin's afternoon escapade left me with no desire to go anywhere or do anything. I was just emotionally exhausted.
Still am, truthfully. So I think I will just go to bed early tonight.
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