Thursday, August 7, 2008

Day 68 - Aug 7, 2008

I honestly think that Kevin somehow knows when I have hit my lowest point and he does something to give me hope. I will admit that that has been my problem the last few days - I had lost hope. It's very hard to always stand next to Kevin's bed with him just laying there. He doesn't do anything - just looks at you every now and then, but mostly just looks straight ahead with a vacant look. Very rarely do we get any kind of facial expression and so often I just feel like he is never going to come back to us. I can usually go home and talk myself into feeling good, but after days and days of no sign from Kevin that he's in there - I do start to lose that sense of hope.

But today he did something. I think I mentioned about those large clothespins used for rehab - well today the occupational therapist and I clipped all 5 of them onto his gown. We asked him to unclip them and put them into the bowl at his side (and then put them back onto his stomach). HE DID IT! And not only once - but 4 times. It was so funny because the 3rd time I asked him to put the things from the bowl onto his belly and he let out this agitated sigh and started slamming his hand into the bowl, and slamming the clips onto his stomach and then slamming his hand in the bowl again and so on. He was so mad! I could almost hear him say "why in the hell do you keep making me do this stupid stuff?!!" I positively loved it!

That was all I needed. I haven't cried all day today.

And we are still on for the surgery first thing in the morning. I have to be at the hospital at 6am for a last visit before they take him at 6:30. Please keep us in your thoughts tomorrow!

With that, I am going to head to bed early tonight. I will let y'all know how it goes tomorrow!

24 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gotta love his attitude! Keep it up Kev! :) I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow. I'm sure that surgery will go just fine and he'll be giving you more attitude in no time! God Bless you Kevin - stay strong through your surgery!

Heather (OFR)

Anonymous said...

God Bless You.

Praying and sending many good thoughts your way. Please everyone who reads this blog..pray hard for Kevin with his surgery tomorrow. Thank you. : )

Get some rest. You have amazing strength, Leslie. For Brianna being such a young person..to be able to see all she has seen, sit by her brother's bedside and be a positive force in her Mother's life..You are so amazing too, Brianna. So amazing. Good luck tomorrow.

kim murphy said...

YEAH for a positive day!!!!! Kevins way of saying I'm doing ok Mom and hang in there. I pray for you all that surgery in the morning goes well as planned and in no time you will be on your way to Tampa. But Leslie it's ok to cry and get that grief out, somehow I think that it makes you stronger ,not that you aren't an amazingly strong and wonderful mother already!Brianna hang in there girl ,I think of you all every day and am in awe of your courage and dedication to your son and brother, he is so lucky to have you by his side and i believe he knows that and is fighting harder every day for you both.Keep the faith and know that there are bunches of thoughts and prayers from all over just for you.
kim

Anonymous said...

Hope is a beautiful thing.

I will pray extra hard for tomorrow's surgery.

Lisa D in California

Anonymous said...

They say that laughter is the best cure so try to laugh and be as positive as you can arround Kevin Im hoping that he is not sad when your sad.
Im really curious about how Kevins burns are healing and if he can feel his right side...But you share enough with us,I will try to ask your brother Matt.
Thank You for sharing...We all really care!
Kevin G.
E.B. Campers association

Anonymous said...

don't lose hope! last night i watched the fully recovered bob woodruff on abc news give a full report on nightline... he had a traumatic brain injury 2yrs or so ago, he was hit by a bomb in iraq while reporting on patrol, he to had his skull partly removed and the whole nine yards. And now after some time past, and many surgeries, and therapy he is reporting on tv again. Just keep truckin you all will get there!

Anonymous said...

Way to go Kevin and Leslie. What a team you guys make. I am praying for you honey and just feel in my heart that all will go good for you honey. Love ya, Pam

Anonymous said...

LESLIE
WE ARE ALL AT HOME PRAYING FOR HIM, YOU AND BREEZY TODAY! I HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL WITH THE SURGERY AND STAY STRONG!!!

CHRISTIE GRIFFIE

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Leslie. I am tickled that you got to aggitate Kevin yesterday, (one of the joys of being a Mom!!)
Take care.
Peg McElravy

Kris said...

Way to go Kev! Wow that must have been a great feeling to see him do that!! Saying extra special prayers for you all this morning - for the massive amounts of strength, peace and comfort that you need to get through today and every day. Saying extra special prayers for Kevin's doctors as well.

We're all out here praying for you and praying with you! God bless you Kevin, God bless you Leslie & Breezy. Big, ginormous hugs to you all.

- Kris, a Soldiers' Angel from RI

Anonymous said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you--Always...

Anonymous said...

Good for you Kev!! Keep up that attitude. I bet no one ever said having attitude to be a good thing, but you keep it up! Leslie I really believe that things will keep looking up. Kevin has so many people praying for him each and ever day. We're all hoping for the best. You have to be one of the most amazing Mom's in the world! I give you so much credit for putting things aside and being with Kev. He really needs you and he is lucky to have you with him right now. Remember to take good care of yourself too! Kevin would want that.

Anonymous said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you today and always

Jodi said...

YAY Kevin!! You keep that attitude kiddo, cause it's going to get you thru this! Keep fighting! That's great news Les! Don't give up hope, because remember, Kevin needs you as much as you need him. Kevin pulls from your strength and love for him. You are always in my thoughts and I will be keeping positive thoughts for surgery!
Safe thoughts for Alan.
Healing and positive thoughts for Kevin.
Big hugs for you and Breezy.
All my love to you guys!
Andrew's Aunt Jodi

Unknown said...

Les, Kevin took a step backwards the past few days only to let you know he is going to continue to take more steps forward. Hang in there. Keep your faith and strength as God has put you to this and he'll get you through it. He cheered you up yesterday through Kevin. Believe it. You all are in my thoughts and prayers for a good day today while he has the shunt put in. Love you all.
Diana

Anonymous said...

Leslie, that is such great news. I got a big smile on my face as I visualized Kevin disgustedly slamming those pins into the bowl. He really is aware of your presence and understands what you are saying. That has to be so encouraging for you because it sure is for me. I'll be praying for all of you today as Kevin goes in for his surgery. By the way, Moe gave me the hug that you sent the other day, and I can't tell you how good it made me feel. Almost like being with you for a moment. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you always. Love you.

Anonymous said...

ive been on vacation for a fue days but just was reading what i missed on your blog stay strong you have been a wonderful mother but take care of yourself to that is wonderful about tony halk im sure kevin will be so happy take care and good bless

tbehr1018 said...

God Bless you ALL!!!!
Theresa

Vicki Chrisman said...

Thinking of you all today.. and so thrilled to see that Keven had a good day ,and that you are feeling better. You have done a fantstic job of keeping positive in the midst of all this.. so you are certainly alowed down days. The way you have handled all this has amazed me from the very begining , and continues to my friend. You are one tough mama! ( with a tender heart .. of course) lol That why we love ya!

The Rock said...

Leslie , You are all in my prayers! I just know Kevin is going to be alright! What a fighter !
Love
Petra
S.A. from Louisiana

Anonymous said...

They always say that the darkest part is right before the dawn....so hang in there, Leslie! Great job, Kevin! Just do the best you can each day....praying for you all.


Sophie

Anonymous said...

Hey Les,

Kevin knows his stuff!!! When people get mad, they have emotions and feelings. Obviously, those receptors to his brain are telling him to feel that emotion. How great is that?!!!???!!!

Hopefully, things went well with surgery today. Please keep us updated. We hang on your every word!!!

You and Breezy keep up the good work. Both of you keep him going!!! Kevin is SOOOO lucky. I don't know I could be as strong!!!

Kristen M.

Unknown said...

BRAVO! Sending many more prayers. Love, hugs and prayers. Always

Anonymous said...

That's wonderful he was able to follow commands, even more wonderful was the show of emotion! I'm so glad you got that boost of hope. I'm praying that his surgery went well today and that he's recovering quickly. God bless you.